Day 2...

Yesterday was the start of the new year.  I did manage to work out and I ate OK.  Not great, but not that bad either.  Today for breakfast I had a Greek yogurt and then ate horrible for lunch because I was starving.  Taquitos and cheese dip.  Now I feel bad for eating it.  I'm  not going to beat myself up, but I need to learn not to do that.  I do plan on working out this afternoon and have a healthy dinner planned, so hopefully that will even things out.
I love before and after photos and stories like these.  To me they are really inspiring and motivational.  Plus, I look at these people who have lost over 100lbs and I think, "If they can do that, I should be able to lose 20-30lbs".  They've worked so hard and stayed with it, for a much longer period of time than I'm going to need.  Some of them took over a year to lose the weight, but they stuck with it and continue to keep it off.  That is incredible to me.  I've seen a few people on facebook recently talking about certain diets and I've seen commercials for pills that will take the weight off and that is not the route that I want to take.  I want to do this the right way and make a complete lifestyle change. Something that I will stick with and maintain for the rest of my life.  I don't want to do another fad diet (like Atkins) that may take the weight off quickly, but the food plan is really impossible to stick with for the rest of your life. And I don't want to take pills either. I've done that as well.  One pill I did take earlier this year, helped me lose some weight, but it had more caffeine than a pot of coffee.  I had heart palpitations when I took it.  I'd rather not die of a heart attack, just to lose some weight.

Me with Thomas

Me with Morgan

This is going to be a hard change with food.  Surprisingly, exercise is coming easy and I actually look forward to it.  But food is an addiction for me.  I think about food all the time, which is silly.  I think about what I'm going to eat for breakfast when I wake up, what I'm going to eat for lunch when I'm done with breakfast and what I'm going to make for dinner once lunch is over.  It's ridiculous. Sometimes I really want to eat healthy, and I know that I'll feel better if I do, but I still go for the bad food.  Like I'm going to miss something if I don't have it.  And then I feel like a fatass afterward for eating it.  It's really a terrible cycle that needs to stop.  I have to start planning ahead and being prepared for breakfast and lunch.  And I need to eat what I've got instead of going out and choosing something bad.
I'm going to be searching for easy and healthy recipes and I will share them on here.  The good ones anyway. I'll try steer you away from anything that is gross or terrible.  My hardest thing will be avoiding cheese and sweets.  If I didn't want those two things all the time, I'd probably be tiny.  My friend, Jen, doesn't even like cheese. I've told her she's a freak of nature and I'm not sure I could actually be friends with someone who doesn't like cheese.  Honestly, I'm a little jealous.  It would be nice to not even want it.  I'm a picky eater, but it seems to be healthy foods I don't like, like onions or tomatoes (by themselves, give me salsa or spaghetti sauce anytime).  Sweets too.  I have another friend who's boyfriend doesn't really like sweets.  He could have one chocolate chip cookie and that would be enough chocolate for him for a month.  I could eat an entire sleeve of Chips Ahoy and still want more.  I don't plan on denying myself sweets or cheese, but I need to learn moderation.
I've got a long road ahead as far as food is concerned.  I don't think that I should try and change every single habit all at once, I'm more likely to fail that way.  If any of you know of any good, healthy recipes please send me a link.